How Did It Happen?!
Six years ago today I became a mother for the second time. SIX YEARS?! How did that happen? Today it hit me - I don't have babies anymore. I knew this, really, but still, for some reason I guess I hadn't really processed it. It's funny because I spent my early adulthood and marriage planning to "have a family" but I didn't really think much past the baby part. I just saw myself as a mom with a baby. Maybe a toddler but not Big Kids. I guess it was because I would seem old then or it just seemed too far away.
But now here I am and it happened so fast. I found myself wondering today "so, what comes next?". I mean I obviously have a long way to go before I am an empty-nester but it got me thinking. With the baby thing long gone and the Big Kid thing in full swing I should be planning, right? But for what? Well, I started imagining myself traveling to all of these wonderful places I'd never been, sometimes with my hubby and sometimes with friends. I saw myself learning about far off cultures and cuisine and history. I imagined myself having time to focus on a more fit and relaxed me. This looked pretty sweet to me.
Then I imagined my home without my kids. I imagined my every day without them there. This was not so sweet. The good news is that it will be a while before I have to face this. And by the time I do I will be more ready. I will have plans and my kids will too.
So, now, after much thought, I can sit back and appreciate how time has slipped past barely noticed. And I know that it won't be the last time.