Remember a few weeks ago I told you that I was going to be one of the editors for the new Dove.ca site? Well the site is up and article number two has been posted. I should be thrilled, right? And in some ways I am. It is an honour to represent a brand that you really believe in and have your opinion and perspective valued. But in this case it has also been incredibly humbling. I have had to come to terms with the fact that I am simply not a writer. I guess having a degree in English and writing a blog and running a business does not mean you can actually write in a formal, structured way.
I have struggled. I mean I have REALLY struggled to write these pieces. Not because I don't know the topics or am uninspired but because I tend to write like I talk in an organic, story-telling kind of way with tangents and irrelevant snippets scattered throughout. I never blog from an outline and it has been years since I thought about format, structure, and precision when writing.
To be honest this is the hardest thing I have ever done professionally. It does not come naturally to me at all. I am finding it stifling and frustrating and, thankfully, when the article is complete, I am finding it fulfilling. Or at least I am incredibly thankful that I will never have to conquer that particular article again. It's hard to tell which.
I have never found anything like this terribly difficult. I was one of those kids who always got great grades despite the fact that I hardly studied and skipped a ton of classes. I was lucky I guess. Or was I? Now that I have to face something this challenging I don't know where to start. I have no experience. I feel dense because it is not clicking for me and is taking far more time than I feel it should. And then, even when it is done, I know it is mediocre. I know I will be spending more time going over it with the editor and having her, once again, explain to me the "rules" of this type of writing and the reasons why I need to follow them. But it is not that I don't want to. I swear. It is really, truly because I can not wrap my head around it. My brain just doesn't work that way. Isn't that weird? I've never known that before so I suppose I can be grateful for that.
Anyway, check out the latest article by me and the other editors on Dove.ca and let me know what you think. Please, be kind.