Seriously. What the hell?I know that April is usually a bit up and own, but really? Sun, rain, a thunderstorm and then some snow.We'll hit 25°c Thursday and drop down to -1°c by Saturday.Did you not consider all of those couples who had planned and hoped for a beautiful April wedding? They probably anticipated rain but likely weren't counting on snow.Cam and Eva are alright with it, but poor Cuyler. It's was enough that on March 20th the snow didn't melt and the sun didn't shine warmly down to freckle our faces like it is supposed to in Spring, but... More »

It was a treacherous walk from the front door to my van this morning, but it sure was pretty.... More »

When I think back to 12 years ago today, I remember being the heaviest I've ever weighed.I was swollen beyond recognition and had zero feeling in my hands due to extreme water retention - also known as edema. Ahhh pregnancy, you were very unkind to me back in 2001. I really wish I had a photo to post but I would not allow any camera lenses facing my direction. I looked ridiculous.Sausage fingers aside, 12 years ago today was one of the most important and unforgettable days of my life. My little ginger hair boy entered the world and I... More »

I had a very clear full circle moment last night as I was helping my almost-12 year old "antique" paper for his social studies project. I remember doing the exact same activity for school with my Mum when I was his age.When I see my kids doing the same things I did as a child...it's incredibly bittersweet.They are growing up. I am growing old. ...sigh...... More »

Today is April 2, world Autism Awareness Day.The day that most everyone in the autism community displays the colour BLUE in some way, shape or form.You'll see the Autism Speaks logo everywhereIn our house we wear blue in support of a beautiful boy who we all loveEva and I paint our nails every yearThis year we added a new member to Cuyler's Crew (and he's sportin blue, too)!!As much as I want to immerse myself in this day of awareness, part of me has a problem with the word "awareness".Perhaps because I live it everyday. There is NO need for awareness... More »

A typical Friday night at our place.... More »

As far back as my memory serves me, I have loved writing.I was a total bookworm growing up and always had my nose between the pages of a book.I had journals and diaries.I would staple stacks of paper together to write stories in and (very badly) illustrate them.Eight years ago while we were in  the process of getting Cuyler diagnosed, I started blogging and utilized it as an outlet for my fear, anger, confusion, sadness and joy. I had no idea writing that blog would bring so many amazing people into my life.I loved writing it because I wrote about... More »

I think more than anything, people who know us are not shocked that we have a dog, but rather that Sean is ok with it.We both said we'd never get a dog. We were both anti-dog, Sean more than myself.Never say never. He's pretty taken with this little guy.... More »

While waiting outside the school to pick the kids up earlier this week I was asked by another mom if I had a good March Break. My response was swift (and maybe a bit knee-jerk) "No, it actually sucked." She looked taken aback and said "Oh that surprises me coming from you."Then I felt like a giant turd.I explained "I generally really do like hanging out with my kids. And there were moments of that...but it just wasn't a good week. It happens."The reason for my non-enjoyment of the break this year?THESE FOURAdorable, right?Wrong. Cuyler was still in a funk. Eva perfected... More »

I can't believe the difference between last March Break:and this March Break:Stupid winter...Stupid cold...I was patient with the cold weather and it really didn't bother me up until about 3 days ago. I'm so done with this winter.Anyone else?... More »